I am not the last boy in the school. I have risen in a few months,
over several heads. But the first boy seems to me a mighty creature,
dwelling afar off, whose giddy height is unattainable. Agnes says 'No,'
but I say 'Yes,' and tell her that she little thinks what stores of
knowledge have been mastered by the wonderful Being, at whose place she
thinks I, even I, weak aspirant, may arrive in time. He is not my
private friend and public patron, as Steerforth was, but I hold him in a
reverential respect. I chiefly wonder what he'll be, when he leaves
Doctor Strong's, and what mankind will do to maintain any place against
him.
But who is this that breaks upon me? This is Miss Shepherd, whom I love. Miss Shepherd is a boarder at the Misses Nettingalls'
establishment. I adore Miss Shepherd. She is a little girl, in a
spencer, with a round face and curly flaxen hair. The Misses
Nettingalls' young ladies come to the Cathedral too. I cannot buy steroids online look upon
my book, for I must look upon Miss Shepherd. When the choristers
chaunt, I hear Miss Shepherd. In the service I mentally insert Miss
Shepherd's name - I put her in among the Royal Family. At home, in my
own room, I am sometimes moved to cry out, 'Oh, Miss Shepherd!' in a
transport of love.
For some time, I am doubtful of Miss Shepherd's feelings, but, at
length, Fate being propitious, we meet at the dancing-school. I have
Miss Shepherd for my partner. I touch Miss Shepherd's glove, and feel a
thrill go up the right arm of my jacket, and come out at my hair. I
say nothing to Miss Shepherd, but we understand each other. Miss
Shepherd and myself live but to be united.
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